自殺

I wanted to tell you
Today that

I will not
I will not sleep

to your breathing today.

Instead
I will be flailing
limbs
Un-wanting
Dismantling
Body

Shattered
Dangled
Cracked

Holes
in place

for your exit.

I'm no longer
You couldn't be

Home

Armor

I slit
the soft veil of my
thin skin
following the blue lines
now crimson.

Trailing home
to the palm

closed
tightened
fist

I warp
how I remember you.

You

the one who
wears the taste of my
collar bone,
the small of my back,
the taste of
the back of my knees
(now blown)
like yesterday's laundry.

the one who
dabs the scent of my flesh
as unwashed sheets of mornings after
drained of sweat nothings.

Once, you held my palm to your lips
tasting my subtle singularity
hardening to my warmth

Rivers rose
rushing
following
the blue-hue veins back
the hardened, criminal walls of this heart.

Stealing Bases

In the morning mess
I find you waiting

The sky thick with wet

Clouds
Unable to
Hold it all in

You on your dark
Brooding cloud
Offer to take me

To places I need to be

I rage against you
For I cannot abide by
Such laws of (your)confusion

Bound by floods,
Diminished shorelines

You stand where if you wait long enough
The tides will pull you in

(Everyone's bound to be
Pulled in
by the tow)

So no.

I'm waiting for the one
Who remains steady
Just a soft rocking over my waves

He'll anchor
Wait
Then
Sail us both back
To(for) shore.